Category: Ponder

  • good day saturday

    good day saturday

    sometimes you have one of the more interesting conversations over nothing. sometimes not even food, not alcohol, not anything but people sitting on the same couch jumping from one topic to the next, just asking “why” or saying “I think” or explaining “this happened because.” and then in the same night you have those personal…

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  • because every new year is just another year of learning to move on

    because every new year is just another year of learning to move on

    Your life has been profoundly shaken by these recent revelations. It’s not your task to immediately forgive those who shook you. Your spoken desire to forgive the woman who betrayed you is in opposition to what you feel. Forgiveness forces an impossible internal face-off between you and a woman you hate. Acceptance asks only that…

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  • Untitled post 3190

    How things are lately, as I’m supposed to update my doctor — C talked to Jopy apparently, and he told me only when I asked him what he was planning to do about…things (his friendship is making me feel betrayed, and my doctor says it’s part of what my expectations are, and rightly so, if…

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  • Untitled post 3191

    When I know someone said, “it’s been a year, she should be over it,” I feel angry, hurt, and sad at the same time. Getting a doctor was the best thing that I’ve done since everything happened. I can say this more than any of them who don’t feel responsible for anything they’ve done. I’m…

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  • Reality show

    Reality show

    Thinking about my doctor’s reply to my email. She typed this on her blackberry and I am way impressed. It’s longer than the snippets I’m quoting here. Again, you were all living in a separate world from the rest of Ateneo. It was as if you were in a ‘reality show’ like Survivor where there’s…

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  • Fear, anxiety, fear

    Fear, anxiety, fear

    Had a chat with a friend after I got home tonight. It’s one of those evenings wherein anxiety creeps up on me and it’s almost impossible to brush it off. 

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  • In which they said I had to rate myself

    In which they said I had to rate myself

    I have a friend who, when applying for a job with foreign employers (Singaporean, actually), was asked to rate her skills from 1-5. She didn’t want to say 5 — it seemed too high as if saying you have no other room for learning because you’re reached maximum best already. She settled for a 3,…

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  • The pressure of global competition

    The pressure of global competition

    I have recently read the article “We the restless” by Fatima Avila and it speaks very closely of how I feel: Restless. I wish to tread a path similar to Fatima: have 2 years of work experience in my country, take graduate studies abroad while traveling a lot and then eventually work with an international and…

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  • Trust yourself a little more

    Trust yourself a little more

    Recently I’ve found this great little place called “You the User.” In one of the posts entitled, “Touch,” she talks about trusting our own feelings because at one point, after we start out, little voices of doubt would creep in our mind telling us we are wrong. Every time we are disappointed or experience setbacks in…

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