January has had a couple of ups and downs for me but it seems like things are turning out well again!

I’ve recently met with some people to team up with on a project. One of them dropped me a short email with a very brief description of what their idea is about, and without expounding it immediately reminded me of that thesis proposal I was never able to make. It was an idea I couldn’t push through because I couldn’t be assured of a programmer and making it simple wouldn’t be enough for a senior thesis.

Despite being discouraged because of my lack of resources (or friends) then, I’m really happy that I found a second chance to do something like it. As V said, “Ideas are bulletproof.” If the chance or timing isn’t there, as long as the idea is kept alive, there will always be a possibility to carry it through and I’m more determined than ever to make it this year.

All in all, I now have 3 personal projects lined up. One of them I’m targeting to release a beta in April or May, and it’s something I’m really excited to try out. Start-ups don’t necessarily come from companies immediately. I’m more than ready to experiment and I’m not afraid to fail. I have all these ideas I want to share with everyone, mostly through the internet, and I can’t wait to put them out there.

I have been such a bitter woman lately. Some people have criticized my inability to let go of that bitterness. But it’s also one of the things driving me, reminding me I have to work harder. That I need to accomplish more by myself. I know what it feels like to lose a lot of things; its painful and ugly and I’m not going to let the world do that to me again. This is the second chance that people wouldn’t give me. I’m not out to prove them wrong; I just want to prove to myself that I’m worth a little more.