Category: Ponder
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In which they said I had to rate myself
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in PonderI have a friend who, when applying for a job with foreign employers (Singaporean, actually), was asked to rate her skills from 1-5. She didn’t want to say 5 — it seemed too high as if saying you have no other room for learning because you’re reached maximum best already. She settled for a 3,
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The pressure of global competition
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in PonderI have recently read the article “We the restless” by Fatima Avila and it speaks very closely of how I feel: Restless. I wish to tread a path similar to Fatima: have 2 years of work experience in my country, take graduate studies abroad while traveling a lot and then eventually work with an international and
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Trust yourself a little more
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in PonderRecently I’ve found this great little place called “You the User.” In one of the posts entitled, “Touch,” she talks about trusting our own feelings because at one point, after we start out, little voices of doubt would creep in our mind telling us we are wrong. Every time we are disappointed or experience setbacks in
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What loving life means
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in PonderThe past week I have struggled with some anger, hatred, frustrations at individuals, groups of people, circumstances, memories, whathaveyou. I haven’t been feeling affectionate or happy or understanding or patient. I just have moments when I’m just so dissatisfied no matter what I do and I forget that nothing will ever be perfect. I forgot
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Letters I wrote but did not send
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in Ponderalways articulated distance, a withdrawal. Darling, there are just as many ways of saying goodbye as there are ways of letting you go. The boat is narrow like the width of my heart after impossible loss, cruel resignation; — an excerpt from “Boats,” by Cyril Wong I. I sent you two letters a year ago.
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2012 Success Plan
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in PonderI wonder what other people feel like when they wake up on the 1st of January. Or if they have expectations for the morning? Half of me feels like nothing’s changed but half of me also feels a bit hopeful knowing that 2011 is over, curse it (haha) and 2012 is a blank slate for
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Almost the end of the year and there are feelings I cannot let go of
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in PonderI guess there will always be some things I’ll feel bad about, guilty over, but despite the wrongness of it — of clinging onto the strings of hate, I just can’t let go of these feelings. Not yet. I can’t because I don’t understand how anybody could be friends with him after everything he blamed on
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You never really know anybody until you’ve seen the best and worst of them
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in PonderI used to be really insecure about myself because I felt that because we were both sort-of “creative” people, there’s this unsaid competition between us. And it’s a competition I don’t want to be in, which always made me want to give up an aspect of design to focus on something else. But hearing that
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Design Hiatus
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in PonderFollowing a depressing night, I’ve decided to take a hiatus on designing. I honestly hate how I got here. I’m not over some heartbreaks, and that includes feeling useless and a lot of hate towards myself. My design portfolio used to be filled with posters and whatever I did in college, and it’s a phase